Whatsgood?

Tired of fucking up and making myself feel like shit cause of my stupidity.

Its crazy. How one moment you’re enjoying yourself and everything seems to be going fine, then all of a sudden something bad happens or something bad happens to someone you know. The temporary happiness you were engulfed in suddenly starts falling apart and you begin to realize a lot of things. For one, you realize how much you really care about people. You may fight, bicker, and be furious with the individual, but you realize that you still love them or really care about them in the end. Another thing I’ve realized is that tomorrow is never really promised. You go through life thinking about college, or what you’re gonna do after school, or parties and things like that, but you never stop to think if you’re gonna have the chance to do those things. Theres always gonna be unfortunate and abrupt circumstances that come into your life and you dont know how things are gonna turn out. I guess things like that make me appreciate and be more thankful for the life I have.

Things change

People change. As much as you dont want them to, it happens. Its crazy though how fast or how unnoticed these changes can occur. Youd never think it would happen to you or the people around you, but the next thing you know, the people around you start drifting away, becoming individuals that you guys always talked about never becoming, becoming strangers. Its hard to see these changes come about in a person, especially when that person has made such a big impact in your life and made such a significant difference in it. Its tough. It really is, but I guess thats just how life works.

Fuck this shit

I want out. Now. So your point is that I go out too much. Ok so what? The only reason why you want me home anyways is so that I can be your fucking maid and clean up after all the shit you and everyone else leave out in this house. You dont even care about me. All you want is for me to fucking do all the shit youre too lazy to do yourselves and thats all. You say that Im wasting your money by paying for my gas? First off youre the ones that wont let me get my own fucking job too make my own damn money. Secondly, I make that shit last for a good 2 weeks. Honestly, you need me more than you know it. Who are you to say that you do so much more than I do at this house. Ok, so you feed the dogs in the morning, and do laundry. you know what I do? Clean the damn house, wash the stupid dishes, give the dogs a bath, do my OWN laundry, run errands for whatever the hell you need and more. Im sick and tired of how Im being treated in this house. Its all just bullshit. Im ready to move out and start doing things my way.